Sunday, June 6, 2010
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Rain...just the weather to dampen my soul...
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Rain...great...just what I needed. Why am I always treated like some object with no free will? I thought there were people who understand me and can accept me for who I am. But, guess I was wrong. Still, I'm being treated the same way as always...I've got no freedom in this world. My freedom's being taken away one by one...freedom to do what i want, freedom to be really happy, freedom to love? Who knows...no one really cared for me anyway...I'm just a useless little puppet being thrown around. I'm never allowed emotions and affections. No one gives a damn about me...what is wrong with me? I'm I just an idiot or just a fool? Either way...I'm still the one losing out in this world. Maybe I was right about jumping into the 'nuclear reactor' and 'disappearing' from this world so that I can live in a world where only...I...I myself can be alone...free to do what I want..with no one to care about. Who knows what will happen to me. Sometimes a really want to sleep my life away so that the morning without me in this world will be better...that...would be for the...best...*cries* I'll be waiting for the day I disappear from this world...to make the world a better place without my existence...that's...for the best. *cries*
~countdown to D.DAY starts...today~
~Waiting for the day my existence's erased from this world~
||セバスチャン|| blogged at [10:42 AM]*