Wednesday, July 28, 2010
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Last words...and...goodbyes...
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Sorry readers...today marks the end of this blog and this will be the final and last post. To the people whom I love and cared..this is my final goodbye to you all...
Lets look what had happen during the period of time shall we...
Everything was well in Primary school...had failed relationship and it struck me hard in the chest as the reason for the rejection was..."his skin like that...don't want!"
I don have a choice...and ever since...she never looked back again...say that I'm still young that time and all I don't care...next to secondary school...went well and I liked a girl and wad do you know...First, didn't even get to meet her and my feeling were toyed with. Secondly, another one...too possessive and I can't even have my own space to breath and have to like "report" every single thing to her...f*** man...stop it! And now to Poly life...and here I am thinking I'll have a chance in love, who knows...I've failed again. I can blame no one but myself. The fool I am.
Can't help but to feel that fluttery feeling in my heart. Now...I've got nothing to feel. Love...who in the world even created this emotion anyway? I've been tricked into all this delusions and what I get...nothing. "Good things come to those who waits" I've always thought this phrase was true...everything's a case of bad timing for me...who knows...I may just drop dead on the street without anyone knowing.
Its also time for people to start hating me already. Things that I do to them...why cant they hate me for it? This is just not right. Or should I just say my goodbyes and let everything end and life goes on? That's still selfish of me...
All I wanted was to be with you...but looks like fate forbids it...I cant do anything to change fate...but the day when I held your hand even though knowing your heart's with a certain someone I know, I was really happy you didn't take your hand away. And sorry for being to sudden when I held your hand. I wish you happiness with "him"
~28/07/10~
~To my readers and people I love...~
~From this day on...~
~This blog will rest in peace~
~any new updates will be on my msn~
P.S I'm sorry...for all I've done...
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