Tuesday, July 27, 2010
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I should reflect on my life...
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Really...I should be reflecting on my life...what have I been doing for these 17 years?
Primary school was alright for me...secondary school was not too bad...did pass my o levels but didn't go to my desired course...sad. Kinda regretted on coming to this course...and here i was thinking i could learn something new. But guess what, I was wrong. This course does not suit me at all. I'm lagging behind my class...its time i woke up but what's the thing that just keeps me sleeping? Everyone seems awake to me, while I'm still in a deep slumber waiting for the day I awaken...when will that day come...I really need to wake up.
What should I do now in my life? Is there any meaning to my existence? What's my purpose? Everyone has their purpose in life. Should I leave here and go on a trip to reflect on myself? Feels like...I'm being selfish again. I don't even have the courage to tell 'her' my feelings face to face. I'm nothing but a coward. I've been the one pulling all the strings...I'm the mastermind from the start, just that...I've been lying to myself...living in a world of delusions, lies, deception etc.
~Matta~Neh~
~しょうたろ~あいか~
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